Hmmm, he asked me a question today and i was panic at that moment cause i don't know what to answer. Should i say yes ? Cause i realize myself already had cross his mind, just that i scare i say it and being rejected and this will make both of us to feel awkward. 

I din't mean to reply him in short because i was thinking so much things. I scare being rejected, i scare he never cross my mind and only i'm the one who had, i scare he only flirt with me, scare this and that...all silly things came in my mind once together ~

I'm happy when he call me dear, but i don't know whether the dear is what meaning for him. Actually he is important to me cause he make me feel like he got 安全感. Every time i view back my message, its feel like a couple conversation, but...the thing is we never say...arrgghh...is kinda complicated actually.

And one thing, i will start worry about him, like yesterday night, i message him but no reply for like hours, i scare anything happen to him, but i don't want keep message him cause i scare i annoyed or bother him, so i just wait for his reply, but deep inside my heart i was actually worried ~ Till 12 am i was half awake cause i'm still waiting for his reply, but no at all, so i sent a message to him to say goodnight. 1am no reply..i give up and sleep. When i wake up at 5am, yes he replied and i feel relief.

So, i also don't know what should i do now, should i ask ? Or just leave the complicated relationship ? Hmmm....i know, we both are not trust in true love because once in awhile we have been hurt, but things have to move on anyway, right ? Wait...naww not right, this is just what i think but his mind i'm not sure ~

Never mind, this is my blog, so i just release my feeling here.

To you, yea i think i'm falling in love with you already but never mind if i am the one who crossed your mind so just let me be ~ i just wanna let you know so i won't regret for not telling. 我没有抱着希望你能接受我，我只想让你知道我真正的想法，对不起如果这么的坦白和那么主动的答案吓跑了你的话，不好意思，因为我习惯性主动了。我真的喜欢上你了. :)

Hmmm, 说出来了，心情好多了~